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Jia Baoyu put down his book and ran to his grandmother, Jia Mu.
Coincidentally, Jia Mu, Wang Xifeng, and others were discussing evil spirits and dark arts.
Jia Baoyu immediately interjected, mentioning the incident years ago when Aunt Zhao had hired someone to perform rituals, causing him and Wang Xifeng to fall ill from an evil spell.
Wang Xifeng said, "I don't remember it very clearly. But I just felt my body was beyond my control, as if someone was pulling and dragging me, urging me to kill someone."